verbosity....calling

you sit on the edge of the bed with your arms around me.....

I stand in front of you

torn

wanting to focus on the moment with you, so few and far between

so much contention between us lately

part of me wants to turn my attention to just past the window

the wind beckons me

what does it say

I close my eyes for a moment, feeling the breeze through the window

listening

I open them to see you watching me intently

trying to figure out what drew my attention

then it's gone

that moment, that feeling

that calling

Are they enough? Not yet...

I happened across a writing challenge, The 100 Word Challenge.  It caught my interest. I have neglected  my blog for far too long. So in the spirit of a challenge, here we go.

Enough

By definition, it means the quality or quantity to meet your needs or expectations. What about wants? By some standards, I have "enough" children. That would mean that I have the amount needed to meet my needs or expectations. Truth be told, I don't "need" children. I want them. As for expectations, I never "expected" to have children, much less nine of them with one on the way. I want them. So enough doesn't apply to me at this point in that respect. I don't have "enough" children because I never needed them or expected them. 

Until they got here.

Snow. It snowed. Quite a bit. Enough that it was piled against the door. Thank goodness it is gone. But I did say this morning, after the power flickered off for about the 12th time, that I would not complain about the snow or the cold again today if the power would just stay on. I am now counting the minutes until midnight so I can complain, a little. It was pretty. But on the downside, it was so heavy and wet that it collapsed the netting on the run of the Icelandics. So for now they are penned up until the wind lets up a little. I was going to can some today, but we chose not to after the power flickers this morning. I was thankful to get hubby's breakfast cooked before he got out the door, quite late :)
So I made some yogurt. We will see how that turns out. Hopefully better than the cottage cheese experiment.
I would like to start baking, but it is too late in the day.
I need to figure out supper. I forgot to thaw out what we needed for today. Trying to get back into a schedule. It isn't working.
Tootles

Wow.... 5 months has gone by that quickly. Still not pregnant again. Another betrayal. I don't know what to do about it. How to heal. I need to heal. None of the little ones have a clue what is going on, and I plan to keep it that way. Daily life is much the same. Added a cow. Twice a day milking now. Takes a bit more time. We have been doing a lot of canning. The kids have had an amazing summer out here. Can't imagine them ever living in town again. So much adventure. Give them a row of big, round bales and they are happy for a long time. Literally have to drag them off of them. The hide and seek, the pirate games, the scavenger hunts, the nature walks into the "dark woods". Give a 4 year old a pair of overalls to wear and he becomes an instant farmer. Potatoes still to dig, and a small row of carrots. Apples galore. Between the apples trees in the front yard and the big one across the pond, there are a lot of apples. Need to pick and can...apple butter, apple rings, apple pie filling. Still have squash to can. Some shredded zucchini. Want to try and can some milk. We have put up some beans, some pork, some carrots, and lots of tomatoes. Not as many as I wanted to, but any is better than none. Goal is 1000 jars in a year. We have a new challenge right now, and that is 2 canners a week. From now until the end of April. That will give 364 jars. Not a 1000, but more that we have. Even if I am down to canning beans all winter. Then I can have good ones to use all Spring and Summer. Want to can some ground beef, but we'll see where we get with that. Oh yeah... and beets. We canned beets, and I have more to go.

wow

Almost a year. Damn. To say a lot has happened would be an understatement. The move. The betrayal. The healing. The joy. The loss. I will begin to elaborate on some of it as the days come if I feel I can. I will start tonight with the move.
We are out in the country. We have our animals out here with us. A one room school house. We love it. For the most part. Just need to get the addition done. The kids absolutely love it out here. Spring brought us more than double the number of goats in about 2 months. 8 new babies. All healthy. All of our ducks and chickens are laying steadily, time to get an incubator going. Beautiful sunrises, amazing sunsets. Ducks and geese on our pond all the time. Stargazing in our yard without leaving town to do it. Northern Lights at 5:00 in the morning, thanks Caitie. Watching a lightning storm at night that is clear over in Minnesota. Lots of little things.
There are many things we love. Very little to dislike. The lack of addition. The blacktop closer than what I would like. And some damn airplane that flies nearby our farm every night around 10:00. lol.... little things. I guess that is all life is.. a bunch of little things all put together.

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day 317..... LAST DAY OF APRIL.... AND SNOW??????

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day 299..... Chicken Coop is Clean and Ready for Building

day 298..... chicken coop is ready for mopping

day 297..... who would have thought shoveling pigeon poop could be so satisfying

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day 294..... OUR little piece of North Dakota

day 293..... that's where it used to sit

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day 266..... March Blizzard

day 265..... 3 of a kind

day 264..... Superman?

day 263..... Unbelievable

                                                                       Winter Weather Advisory
                                                                 Hazardous Weather Outlook

Tonight: Snow. Low around 11. Calm wind becoming north northwest around 6 mph. Chance of precipitation is 90%. Total nighttime snow accumulation of 2 to 4 inches possible

This is INSANE!!!!!

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day 257..... I got your goat... well, goats

day 256..... the heat is on

day 255..... you can see the road

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day 242..... Sophie balancing a fork... because that is what she does

day 241..... Happy Valentine's Day

day 240..... this is my REALLY not impressed face... (insert grumpy face of choice)

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